As I lay in bed last night about to drift off I had a moment of self-discovery.
My brain functions at its highest level when I am nearly comatose.
Let me try to explain:
All day long I feel like I'm in a constant state of unaware...distracted.
At any given moment there are 134 things running through my brain.
Maybe even 135.
I have been known to start anywhere from 3 to 5 sentences at the same time and never finish the complete thought of even one.
I feel all jittery (a lot) because I have a lot of things I want to do and I'm not sure which thing to start first.
You know the scene in the movies where the main character is driving down some dirt road in their dirty old pick-up/Beetle/convertible with the windows down and they reach up to spin the dial on the radio?
And then you hear talk radio, some static, a country ballad, some static, some jazz standards, and then more static before they finally settle on some classic song that fits the mood of the moment?
That's how it feels in my brain.
Reasonable thought-static-unreasonable thought-more static-chocolate-static.
The only problem with that is I never quite reach the part with the classic music that fits the mood of the scene.
Which in this illustration would be clear and collected thoughts that intermingle nicely together.
Instead, it's just static intermingled with brief bursts of ideas and more static.
Unless I'm almost completely comatose.
When I'm about to fall asleep it's as if all the static clears from my mind and amazing, reasonable thoughts with continuity flow through instead.
But it's like some sort of sick mind game because at the same time this is happening I'm so exhausted that my brain tells me I may as well be strapped to the bed because my body will NOT be allowed to get up to write anything down in order to remember these clear, concise thoughts in the morning.
Don't I sound like a tortured soul?
Please don't let my psychosomatic issues scare you.
I'm fairly certain I'm not about to have a psychotic break or anything.
I think I'm stable.
I think I'm stable.
Did I just say that?
B
You can see the rest of this session here under "Graff Family."
9 comments:
Cutest little girl ever!! Great job B.
Some of your best work yet! I'm sure your brain told you what to do while you were sleeping, wait did I say that out loud;)
stable is anybody really stable
Great pix!
Two thoughts, first great pictures!
Second I find that truely crazy people seldom wonder if they are crazy so if you are still pondering the question I am sure you are ok!
These are amazing! Layla is just too cute!
I absolutely LOVE these pictures! Of course you had beautiful subjects, but my favorites are of Layla's eyes! How in the world do you do that?
Thanks guys! Melissa...how do I do what? They're just her eyes and I took pictures of them. :)
AWESOME pics :) This little girl is a DOLL!! By the way, I know you probably think that we are NOTHING alike, but after reading this, I think we are WAY more alike than one would think!! I think it's called ADD. I need medication for it.
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